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{ October 21, 2008 @ 12:02 pm }
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{ Friendship, Life, Love, Uncategorized }
{ Tags: honesty, Love, open, soul mate, true love }
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You take me to a higher plane
A level that I never imagined
Where honesty
Integrity
Respect
Friendship
Are at the core
and
present every day
Every conversation
elicits a deeper
more profound
level
of respect
and admiration
You never make me
feel worthless
or
as though
you could do better
Your actions
back up your
words and
I believe
your desire
your want
are genuine
You make me
feel beautiful
and special
with a glance
no words
or
touching
is necessary
Yours eyes
reveal
your soul
and
I see me
in your eyes
©dsw 2008
{ July 28, 2008 @ 5:47 pm }
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{ Desire, Friendship, Life, Uncategorized }
{ Tags: poem, unexpected }
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You asked
I said no
We laughed
You asked
I said no
We shared
You asked
I said no
We talked
You asked
I said yes
Who knew it would be like this
©dsw 2008
{ July 22, 2008 @ 2:38 am }
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With silent prowess
She goes into hiding
Signaling a time for rest
Brilliantly shining
On each moment that passes
Before darkness consumes
©dsw 2008
Thank you to my friend Israel for allowing me to use his photo for my impromptu inspiration.
{ February 4, 2008 @ 2:19 am }
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I’m away from you and can’t wait to hear your voice
I haven’t felt your touch yet it’s all I can think of
I want to be the reason you smile each day
I want to know that you long to hear my voice
I want to know that my touch is one you think of
I want to know you want to make me smile
Wondering how you feel about me makes me nervous
My hands shake with anxiety
I know you want someone to show you that you’re worth it
I need to know I’m worth it too
© dsw 2008
{ September 11, 2006 @ 1:19 pm }
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{ Life, Uncategorized }
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Everyone deals with things in their own way. For me, Septmeber 11, the memory of it, overwhelms me. In the weeks surrounding the anniversary of that fateful day, my mood mellows, my heart saddens, my frustration level increases and I get very restless. I woke this morning to various somber reflections of the day. I get angry when people ignore it. When on the radio and the TV, which I watch sparingly at best, programming and inane commercials go on as nothing ever happened. I received a meeting planner for work, and it turned my stomach – how can you have a meeting on a day that we should be mourning.
On Sepetmber 11, 2001, I was woken from my restful sleep sometime around 5:30am by my then boyfriend calling to convince me to turn on the TV. Not being a morning person, why in the world would I want to get up at 5:30am to watch TV??? “A plane hit the World Trade Center”, he said, “we’re at war”. Just the thought of those words now, brings tears to my eyes and makes my heart sink. I turned on the TV in time to watch the plane hit the second tower and then consequently to watch the towers fall. The timeline in my memory is a blur, but at some point the Pentagon was also attacked – and my friend Dave was there…he worked there…Oh god! I spent the better part of two days trying to find out if he was alive. Fortnately, he was. His story is one of the ones of pure luck. He got called to a meeting in another part of the building – he wasn’t in his office, but he had friends and co-workers that were not so lucky.
To me, this day isn’t about whether we should or shouldn’t be at war. This isn’t about President Bush. This isn’t about anything except for the fact that we were attacked. That our world was shattered. That lives were lost. I suppose I was naiive just like most Americans to the fact that we were safe. We lived in a world that is plentiful, where wants and desires far overshadow the basic life needs. It seems we as a nation have pretty easily returned to that way of thinking. Some of us take time to reflect and remember the loss of that day. Others gloss over it as just another day. For me – I live. I live simply. I live to enjoy every minute of every day. I spend very little time idle. Very little time is wasted in my world. Most think I’m nuts and don’t know how I do it. I live modestly in a studio apartment, allowing me the financial flexibility to do the things I enjoy doing. I am out almost every day doing something new, fun, laughing, enjoying life. I don’t let things bogg me down. My job is just a job, it doesn’t define me or my success. I am successful in that I love life and enjoy it to its fullest. Because, as was so clearly spelled out for us – you never know what tomorrow brings.
© dsw 2006
{ August 15, 2006 @ 9:25 pm }
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{ Life, Uncategorized }
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Sometimes when I cry
The emptiness inside subsides
Sometimes when I smile
The happiness inside exudes
But sometimes, it’s all a facade
The tears are silent
The smiles are empty
Can you see behind my eyes
Can you tell that I am sad
I am alone
Will you walk away
Or will you see that I need you
Will you stay and hold my hand
Wrap your arms around me
And hold me while I cry
I need you
Can’t you see
© dsw 2006
{ July 8, 2006 @ 10:37 pm }
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Today I said goodbye
I am angry – you left without saying goodbye
I had things to tell you
I am hurt – you didn’t ask if I was ready for you to go
I had life to share with you
I am sad – life will not be the same without you
I will never get to see your smile again
I am relieved – your life was no longer what it should have been
I cried at the thought of you suffering
Today I said goodbye
My eyes flooded with tears
My eyes longed to see your laugh
My arms ached to feel your embrace
My mind reeled with memories
Memories of my childhood with you
Of my adolesence when I rebelled from you
Of my adulthood when I cared for you
Of each day wondering if today would be the day that you forget who I am
Of my frustration of having to assume the role of parent for my parent
Of loving you so much it hurt
Today I said goodbye
My anger will pass
My hurt will subside
My sadness will fade
My relief will comfort me
I have my memories
Of your smile
Of your laugh
Of the good times
and even of the bad
I have my memories
Of you
Today I said goodbye to you, dad
© dsw 2006
{ July 2, 2006 @ 11:38 am }
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{ Love, Uncategorized }
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Laughter fills the room
A welcome sound that doesn’t happen often enough
I look over from my seat at the desk
Your smile is beaming
Your sister’s laugh booms from something silly you just said
You’re 11 now, she is 13
It seems like just yesterday when you crawled around the living room
She would pick you up and carry you to wherever it was she wanted you at that moment
When you cried she would hug you and kiss you on the cheek
The love you have for each other is beautiful and amazing
It brings a smile to my face whenever I think about it
Another laugh brings me back from my memories
The smiles, the adoration in each others eyes
I love you, my kids, I love you
©dsw 2006
{ June 27, 2006 @ 12:09 am }
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The rain falls softly
I can smell it, but I don’t feel the moisture
Music plays in the background
The beat pulses through me, but I don’t hear the words
I sit curled up in my chair, looking out the open window
There is plenty to look at, but I see nothing
The blanket around me falls from my shoulders
Leaving my skin bare for the cool air to touch
My mind wanders
To a different place, a different time
The memories of a distant past fill my head
Laughing for hours about nothing
Long drives with no particular destination
Flowers for no reason
Love notes in my coat pocket
Weekend getaways to the beach
The way you would take my hand in yours as we walked through the park
The smile in your deep brown eyes when you would look at me
Then
Just as suddenly as the memories were there, they are gone
The rain is falling
The music is playing
And I am alone
©dsw 2006
{ June 18, 2006 @ 9:28 pm }
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I open the door
To see you standing there
First with your back to me
Then you turn
You look into me with your penetrating eyes
Suddelnly your arms are around me
But you don’t say a word
Instead, you take my hand
And lead me to the bedroom
Where you genltly kiss my neck
I moan softly
As you run your hands down my arms
I close my eyes
Letting myself be in the moment
Listening to you breathe
Feeling the gentle touch of your fingers
Then, without liftiing your lips from my skin
You unbutton my blouse
And it falls softly to the floor
You sit me down and move with me as I lay back onto the bed
We kiss passionately
I wrap my arms around you
You’ve been gone for so long
But your warm body feels the same
And suddenly I can’t let go
I want to be one with you
Not gently
Not romantically
But the way we’ve always been one
With passion
With heat
With energy and life
I wisper in your ear
‘Take me. Now. Like you never left.’
Before I know it, our naked bodies are together
I’m on my hands and knees
You’re inside me
Fast and hard
And you didn’t forget
Your hand is around my throat
Gently, not to hurt me, but you know how I like it
Tight enough to make my entire body shake
Yes
That’s just how I like it
You make me scream in ecstasy
You’ve taken me to a place that I haven’t been in so long
That I’ve longed for
Every moment since you’ve been gone
And somehow it’s like you never left
I feel alive
My heart is racing
Sweat makes my body glisten in the candlelight
What seems like hours have passed
I’ve fallen asleep
With my eyes closed
I turn my head and my body follows
Afraid to look
But I open my eyes
Slowly
Not wanting to focus
Finding that I don’t need to
I close my eyes again
I reach out and pull me to you
I run my hand down your chest
Slowly, gently
I reach for you
So we can start again
How I missed you
©dsw 2006
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