Sometimes I get wrapped up
In the possibilities
Of tomorrow
Sometimes I get distracted
With the possibilities
Of what could happen
Sometimes I daydream
About the possibilities
Of where life could take me
Sometimes I believe
In the possibilities
Of dreams coming true
Sometimes…
dsw © 2008
You asked
I said no
We laughed
You asked
I said no
We shared
You asked
I said no
We talked
You asked
I said yes
Who knew it would be like this
©dsw 2008
With silent prowess
She goes into hiding
Signaling a time for rest
Brilliantly shining
On each moment that passes
Before darkness consumes
©dsw 2008
Thank you to my friend Israel for allowing me to use his photo for my impromptu inspiration.
You changed me
The moment I found out about you
I became a different man
You taught me
In ways that many had tried
I became a different man
You loved me
From the moment you came into this world
I became a different man
The battle began
I never knew how much I’d have to fight to have you in my life
I became a different man
The struggle continues
There are days I don’t know if I have the fight in me
I became a different man
The fight unceasing
My life is not what it once was
I became a different man
Never does a day go by that I don’t remember
How you changed me
How you taught me
How you loved me
How I became a different man
Never let a day go by that you don’t remember
How you changed me
How you taught me
How you loved me
How because of you I became a better man…
I became a father
© dsw 2008
**A Better Man was written for and posted on www.daarkkmatter.com
Every time I gave my heart
Every time I cared
If I didn’t hurt them first
They would end up hurting me
I knew how to hurt
I knew how to be hurt
I didn’t how to love
or be loved
It was time to find me
Time to understand what I wanted in life
What I wanted in love
So I could give and receive love
I took the time
I opened my mind
Listened to my heart
Looked at life through my eyes
I learned myself
I learned happiness
I learned life
I found me
© dsw 2008
I wake up
Dripping with sweat
My mind races to recall the dream
That caused this reaction
I’m not ready to wake up
I’m not ready to let go
I close my eyes
Hoping it will help
I don’t want to lose it
I struggle to recall the dream
There is meaning in the visions
Of my subconscious
The smells of the city
Permeate the walls of my apartment
The sounds of the city
Call from outside my window
The romance of the city
Fills my mind and my heart
A feeling of peace overcomes me
I open my eyes to bring myself to reality
Sadness engulfs me
I need to break free from the emotion that is tied to this dream
Regret permeates my every pore
I can’t let what is left of this dream control my waking moments
I feel empty
I feel alone
I feel lost
I feel regret
I am breathless
I am crying
I take a deep breath and get out of bed
Starting my day
Struggling to push the memory
…the emotion
From my head
It was just a dream
The day passes
Night begins to fall
I think about the dream again
The emotions return
There is a knot in the pit of my stomach
And suddenly it becomes clear
There is a piece of me
That was left behind
And a piece of her
That will stay with me
Forever
I will never let go
© dsw 2008
Strength
Comes from within
Can be quiet
Can be private
Is controlled
Is determined
Strength
Isn’t loud
Isn’t vicious
Isn’t violent
Is not shown in shouted words
Is not shown with angry hands
When you use your words to demean
You are not strong
When you use your hands to reprimand
You are not strong
When you use manipulation to control
You are not strong
Strength is sleeping next to a liar
And not saying a word
Strength is smiling on the outside
While the inside is falling apart
Strength is believing you’re worth it
When someone else thinks you’re not
Strength is walking away
When it would be easier to stay
© dsw 2008
A minute
An hour
A day
A week
A month
A year
Time passes so quickly
I feel like it was just yesterday
When I was wrapped in your arms
Feeling your breath on my neck
Your lips tenderly brushing mine
When I heard your voice
Softly calling my name
Whispering sweet nothings
That meant everything
At that moment in time
Time has passed
Memories fade
Yet somehow
I don’t forget
The way you made me feel
So
When you call me
After all this time
I can close my eyes
And remember that moment
When you first revealed
Your love
A year
A month
A week
A day
An hour
A minute
We’re right back where we started
When we first met
When we first touched
When we first kissed
When we first fell in love
© dsw 2008
A quiet night
A glass of wine
Soft jazz
A gentle breeze
Thoughts of you
I find joy
In the memories
Of us
© dsw 2008
There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you
A moment doesn’t pass when I wish you were at my side
I close my eyes and can feel your breath on my neck
I stop and stare because I think I see you
I turn around because I swear I hear your voice
I live my life with no regrets
Everything happens for a reason
Each decision is made for a purpose
Yet I can’t help but regret walking away
The reasons I had don’t matter anymore
The decisions I made were wrong
I can admit it
I can accept it
I can’t let go
When I talk about another
Your name is what I speak
When I talk about my future
Your name is uttered without thought
When I talk about my love
You are the one that I speak of
It’s time to move forward
The past should be left behind
My phone rings
It’s my past
My heart aches at the sound of your voice
The words you speak make tears fall from my eyes
You feel the same
You whisper to me: “We’ll make it work, just come back”
“The details don’t matter…”
“We’ll work it out…”
“Just come back…”
You’re closer, but still far away
The distance is still so great
But I believe you
I’m on my way
© dsw 2008
